Even as I type this, I feel a slight guilt creeping in… I swore I wouldn’t rush my little guy, but I catch myself talking to him every day, trying to coax him out. Sorry little one, I’m a bit impatient to meet you! Mostly, I’m just filled with excitement for the impending labor. I’ve been training like I would for a marathon and I’m ready to go!
How far along? Today, I’m 38.2 weeks pregnant! Most babies are considered full-term anywhere between 38 & 41 weeks. So, it’s quite possible that I have another 2 or 3 weeks to go! I can’t imagine being pregnant for that much longer. But, this is a lesson I have to learn in letting go of any plans I have in mind. My little watermelon will choose his own birthday. As his mother, I promise to fiercely protect his right to choose his own destiny. I just need to breathe…
Total weight gain/loss: I’ve gained somewhere around 38 lbs. All of it in my stomach. ALL OF IT! And, I’m going to miss it when it’s gone. Something about seeing a rounded belly when you look down is… beautifully feminine and I know many pregnant women who can relate to this. So, where does all this weight go? According to the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists:
1.5 pounds the placenta,
7 pounds maternal stores of fat, protein, and other nutrients
7.5 pounds your average full-term baby
2 pounds breast tissue (we know it feels like so much more!)
4 pounds increased fluid volume
4 pounds increased blood volume
2 pounds the uterus
2 pounds amniotic fluid
Total = 30 pounds
Symptoms: I’m uncomfortable all the time… but, that’s to be expected at this stage in my pregnancy. I’m not feeling any pain, whatsoever, so there’s that. I can feel my stomach tighten and relax a lot more, which may or may not be an early sign of labor. Pretty much everything now can be a sign of labor… or not
eyeroll! My heartburn has kicked into full gear. Everything gives me heartburn. The other day I ate a PB&J sandwich and had the WORST heartburn of my life. Go figure?!?! I read somewhere that it’s because the baby has a lot of hair. And, today during my ultrasound appointment, my doctor remarked on how much hair our son has… amazing! I can’t wait!
Cravings: Sugar, Ice-cream, Sweets, Milk, did I say Sugar? Any discipline I’ve held on to has gone out the window during these last couple of weeks.
Best moments: Today was my last day of work… When I finally shut down the network this evening, I felt a rush of relief. I won’t be logging back in for another 12 weeks, give or take and I wasn’t sure how I would feel about it… But, I’m okay. Like a passing of a baton, I felt a seamless, yet deliberate shift of energy towards the next phase of my life.
Looking forward to: Meeting my son… any day now! It’s mind blowing! I can’t think of anything more exciting than that.
Current wisdom: Surrender is a scary word… it demands utter faith and absolute trust in a process you cannot possibly fathom. It’s about being open and giving up trying to understand and becoming comfortable with not knowing what is beyond your control. I think I’m finally ready…